31 January 2010

The Gambit

When I was a young lad, I remember commuting from our house in Quezon City to Vito Cruz in Manila every Saturday morning to attend a special class - I was enrolled in Milo Best Chess Clinic run by the Metropolitan Chess Club.

Chess school has 12 levels. While on the program, you also join tournaments.  Every win you get a rating, and if you win enough tournaments, they confer to you the title "master."

My chess teachers live and breathe chess. They practically eat and sleep on chess boards. Believe me when I tell you they are really, really good. They taught me the fundamentals of chess and its language. They introduced me to chess-books and the classic matches of Kasparov and Bobby Fisher - the legends of chess.

Not very long before my basic lessons, I was beating every kid of my age. Not very long after that, I was beating adults four times my age. I was also winning inter-school tournaments.

I do not know if it was good or bad, but not long after my winning streaks, I realized that I did not want to be a professional chess player and was happy and contented with the chess fundamentals I know. You can say that "everything I needed to know, I learned at level 1."

My last lesson at the Metropolitan Chess Club (MCC) was about a special kind of chess move. I can remember my teacher Mila (the president of MCC) telling me, "Rah, there is this one lesson I want to teach you... chess is 99% tactics and 1% planning. The importance of tactics is so significant - it is the secret to winning the game." Our lesson that day was about "The Gambit."

Gambit is a special stratagem in chess. The idea behind it is for a player to sacrifice a piece to gain control of the game.

Little did I know that it is a lesson not only in chess, but also in life. I learned that, "Sometimes, something has to be given up to gain control of  the self."

Tomorrow the gambit begins. But it does not end there.

The gambit gives the initial advantage, but the game is won - one... move... at... a... time.

28 January 2010

23 January 2010

"la la la on the other side"

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

The Climb Miley Cyrus)
ngayon ko lang naintindihan ang song na to. ang lagi ko lang kasi kinakanta, pag naririnig ko to sa mcdo


"la la la la la ... on the other siiiiiiiiiiide...!"


may sense naman pala.

11 January 2010

We can't lie from who we are. Destiny chooses us. Play the man, not the cards - rounders

The Trajectory of a Mosquito

I am being bitten by a mosquito now.

As I watch this little insect suck blood from my left forearm, I can feel her excitement. Her legs a little bit shaky, I can feel her nervousness that she might get caught.

I watch her little proboscis pierce my left forearm to suck my AB type blood.

It is about 1 minute now, and I can see that her belly is filled fully.

I raise my right hand in a aggressive but calm striking position. I slap the mosquito with the speed of a flying fist. It dies at the palm of my hand. Now she's lying there lifeless, inanimate.

You'll never know when you are going to die. You'll never know when you will be lying lifeless, inanimate.

"That's the reality of life," I told my self as I scratch my hand to relieve  the itch. I just realized that I killed something.

I guess, while we are still breathing we might as well live the excitement, fill our belly with nourishment, do our best, and most of all, accept our fate.

10 January 2010

My Problem with Pooh

I will not introduce Winnie the Pooh to children. He (or she?) is a problematic character. Children should not imitate Winnie.

Why does Pooh have a girly voice?
Why does he wear a hanging blouse?
Why doesn't he wear pants?
(usapang lasing pero totoo bakit nga ba?)

Take for example the analysis of Mr. Maho in his Blog (http://jfmaho.wordpress.com/tag/literary-analysis) I quote:


There are many ways in which one can read literary texts. One can interpret them at face value, or one can read various things into them. For instance, did you know that the stories about Winnie-the-Pooh and his friends comprise an allegory of male sexuality; in fact, a very old-fashioned one. With the exception of Kanga, all characters are male, and they each represent different aspects of male sexuality and associated desires, inhibitions, fears, prejudices, etc. The stories also include a typically male (albeit ancient) bipolar view of female sexuality: the caring Madonna (Kanga) and the always-accessible whore (the honey pot).

1. Winnie-the-Pooh is the personification of male (adolescent) sexuality. He is not quite sure what he wants, or even who he is. His actions are often hampered by his fears or his ignorance. Winnie-the-Pooh is in fact a symbol for the penis.

2. The Honey Pot, Winnie-the-Pooh’s favourite thing, represents the male fantasy of a vagina. It is the ultimate objectification of female sexuality. It is passive, will-less, and locked up in a safe place until male lust (i.e. Winnie-the-Pooh) wants a piece of it. As such, the Honey Pot is also a symbol for the whore.

3. Piglet is the unwilling virgin. He is the little kid who wants to be a big kid, like all his friends. Piglet represents the young adolescent’s frustrations and insecurities about never being sure if the others think he’s a grown-up or if they know he’s just a kid pretending to be a grown-up.

4. The Owl represents pretence. He wants to be wise. He tries very hard to appear wise. In fact, he has come to live the image he has created for himself. He is the guy who wants wants everyone else to think he knows all about what to do with the girls, but in reality he is just the same fumbling fool as the rest of us.

5. Eeyore is downbeat, cautious, self-pitying. He is always holding himself back, never allowing himself to enjoy things. He wants new experiences (i.e. date girls), but he is never likely to do so, because he fears what it might lead to. Eeyore is the personification of repressed sexuality.

6. Rabbit is that annoying acquaintance we all know, who is convinced that he is more experienced and mature than anyone else. He is different from the Owl, who knows his limitations but hides them, while Rabbit has no self-awareness at all. He wants to be in charge of all things around him, because he knows best, even when he doesn’t. In the bedroom, Rabbit is the one with the whip, always in fear of loosing control.

7. The Heffalump represents everything that our mothers warned us about, such as bad company, unhealthy living, strangers in cars, etc., as well as their consequences, like unwanted pregnancies, naughty diseases, and so on. Still, we’re all curious animals, and we’re strangely drawn to the Heffalump, perhaps because it is so taboo. The irony of the Heffalump is, of course, that it is no independent danger at all, but a part of our own beings. In fact, the search for the Heffalump represents all those trials and errors we make as young adolescents looking for love, identity, and adulthood. Hence the Heffalump is a symbol of puberty, or more specifically, an escalating awareness of our own sexuality.

8. Kanga represents the teenage mother. (Roo is her child.) Kanga is a mother because she wasn’t afraid of the Heffalump, or at least not afraid enough. But even so, she is a responsible mother. In fact, Kanga is a symbol for the Madonna. Her main role in the story is to control Roo’s unlimited lust for life, clearly in a vain attempt to stop him from repeating her mistake(s).

9. Roo, Kanga’s baby, is the fearless, life-enjoying optimist. He is totally without inhibitions and fears. He represents all our desires for constant adventure and joy. He is like a stereotypical hippie advocating free, boundless sex. He is always willing to jump into anything, as long as it looks fun. And if it doesn’t look fun, he’ll jump into it anyway.

10. Tigger is a wannabee adventurer who wants to enjoy life, but is too dumb to understand what or why things happen the way they do. As he lacks Roo’s naive self-confidence, he also lacks the courage to go all the way. He is the insecure boy who wants to hit on the pretty girls, but always gets cold feet in the last moment (eminently exemplified in stories by Tigger climbing into the tree and freezing). Tigger represents unfulfilled sexual desires, which makes him the eternal masturbator (symbolised by his constant bouncing up and down).

11. Christopher Robin is the only genuinely asexual character in the story. In a way, he is God. He gave life to all the characters. He is the moderator of their lives. He feels for them and cares for them. He is the benevolent, respectful leader we all wish we had.


Anyway, hindi lang kay winnie the pooh ako may problema:

Porky Pig is nude too. Popeye is a violent old man. Looney tunes and Powerpuff Girls, Dexter's Lab, Tom and Gerry, Road Runner and Cayote are too violent for kids. Cow and Chicken is VERY SICK.

It's just wrong, or maybe - tumatanda nalang talaga ako (?)

08 January 2010


New Years Resolution

I just have one -- and that is to never drink Coke again.