13 November 2010

Death of Fish

I just so happened to have maintained a small community of fish. A mix of sword-tails, mollies, janitor fish and kataba. That's all in the past tense now because right at this moment - they are all dead.  At the rate of one (1) casualty fish per day, they all...slowly... perished. Something killed all of my fish. I don't know what, but I did everything I can to save them. I bought all fish meds, did water changes, turned on all oxygen sources. I did what I can and by golly I'll do it again.

I don't know why I care so much about these fish. Fish don't show emotions. Fish are never loyal. They are "atheists" so to speak. They are just there for display. They are just trying to survive, just trying to get along.

Maybe it's because of ownership - the feeling that they "belong" to me. Maybe it's because I want to play god - I want them to depend on me just like how we depend on God.

Could it be that I was partly to blame for their death? If so - I killed them. God killed them.

12 comments:

khantotantra said...

akala ko yung arowana yung nadeads. hindi kaya may nakalalason sa isda mo?

Rah said...

@khanto, yun din ang suspetsa ko eh. dumudugo yung gills nila, i suspect its kind of infection.. buti naman at buhay pa si arowana ko. haay.. never ko na siya papakainin ng kataba. baka yon yung salot :( thanks sa concern pala.

glentot said...

Baka matatanda na yung mga fish they all died a natural death... OK lang yan, they're probably happy to die, or they didn't even notice.

Rah said...

@glen, at 3 second memory, the barely knew death was coming :) haha...

engel said...

that's why i think birds are better than fish. they're noisy, yes, but they live longer. :)

you know my name said...

i remember ang dami kong napatay na fish dati. i used to have fishes din pero sa hindi mapaliwanag na dahilan namatay silang lahat. i wonder. i wonder why.

rico de buco said...

baka nga lason ang dahilan tol..sayang naman mga fish prinito nlng sana natin hehehe

sterndal said...

ay baka naman masyadon mo bini-baby?

ganun yun eh ...

parang yung tuta ng kapatid ko dati. super alaga. katabi pa sa pagtulog. ayun bigla na lang namatay.

hehehe :)

pusang kalye said...

don't blame yourself. baka nag ka LBM lang sila, or cholera like in haiti. kaya ganun. bwahaha. seriously, sabihin mang isda lang yan. life parin yan. I am sorry for your loss.

Rah said...

@rico, hmm.. nilagyan ko ng plants eh. baka factor din yon, could it be the plants were poisonous.

@sterndal. Tama ka diyan, dati kasing pinapapabayaan ko lang sila at hindi pinapakain at 2 months na hindi pinapalitan ng tubig, mas healthy pa sila.

@pusang kalye, salamat pusang kalye, i feel better now. Siguro nga hindi ko kasalanan. Baka oras nalang talaga nila.

sweet pea said...

im so sorry for ur loss....ako pa naman nagpapakain sa kanila dati. :(

Rah said...

hayaan mo na sweet pea. Bibili nalang ulit tayo ng bago. Yung mas malaki at mas cute na fish :) Tas feed mo ulit sila ha. :)